Love collected me from my house a little before 3pm. I didn’t know it was love at this point and love didn’t know me, all I knew was the car that love drove so that I could look out for it. Love didn’t come crashing into my aura, it didn’t cause upheaval. Love pulled into […]
Love – the small word that is meant to encompass everything great and wonderful in the world, yet somehow, it can sound frightening. I don’t think love itself is scary, I think the fear comes when you’ve experienced losing it, because after that, love doesn’t always come presented as something beautiful, it looks a lot […]
“So it turns out his friend was seeing you before and he said you’re a psycho…” Classic. I continued munching on my dairy milk as I listened to my friend update me on how her latest Tinder date went. Ah the classic ‘Psycho’ line – a term he threw at me when I asked him […]
“Oh my god, imagine if this guy ends up becoming your boyfriend!” I adored my Mum’s lingering optimism when it came to my love life, she really held out hope for love after all the tsunamis of shit that had landed on me over the years. She was there through all of them – that […]
When I was single, there were many times when I thought things were falling apart. It would usually start with dropping my favourite palette at the start of the night, speckles of bronzer everywhere, and end with dropping my tub of burger sauce at 3am. And somewhere in between all these little collapses, were the […]
Twenty-something men are all things chaos, that is until they decide to schedule their random, out of the blue snap to you every few months. In that case, they are very organised and know exactly what they’re doing. Women book their nail and lash refills, fuckboys book their moments to mess with your head again. […]
I pressed play. This voice note came as quite a shock after the previous three days of radio silence, and his name was now lighting up my phone like a warning siren. We were back in that space again, that uncertain and chaotic limbo where our next steps could either be to block each other […]
We can’t see ghosts, but the world is full of them. Every woman we see – walking down the street, going into work, sitting in a coffee shop, driving a car – is haunted to some extent. On her shoulder are the whisperings of men that have lusted and left, whispers that trigger doubt and […]
I don’t know which feeling is more grim – lying awake beside a sleeping red flag who you know you should not be lying beside again, or waiting for that red flag to contact you in the days that follow. Either way, it doesn’t matter, you will both speak again when you’re three Pinot Grigios […]
Your twenties are messy, chaotic even. This has been confirmed by the mouldy coffee cup lid I found under my car’s passenger seat today, the fact that my entire wardrobe is a 50/50 balance of glitzy crop tops and fluffy pyjama bottoms that could sit quite comfortably under my boobs, the realisation that I drank […]
Keys? Check! Phone? Check! Every single triggering moment from my dating history? Check! My Dad always says that all we have is today. He’s right, yesterday is gone and tomorrow is unknown. So when it comes to love, how do we leave the hurt from yesterday’s men, firmly with yesterday? The thing is, time is […]
Dry wine mouth, last night’s hairspray still in place, phone on 6% battery – we sat in silence. Not a tired silence, that ghostly knowing silence. We had been here before, and my phone going dead meant nothing in relation to him, that would not be the limit to the communication that we badly needed […]
I’m sitting in a cafe, Penneys bags gathered at my feet, coffee brewing a festive warmth. “Is your food nice? It’s lovely in here isn’t it? Merry Christmas!” He sits three tables down from me, this elderly stranger, our conversation ending as he removes his hat and joins his wife for lunch. There’s something about […]
I had an epiphany. No, the clouds didn’t open for me, there wasn’t a magical shimmer surrounding the moment, I was just sitting on my bedroom floor in front of a full-length mirror, munching on a bag of crisps and applying my foundation. Sitting between a bottle of Huda Faux Filter and the Salt and […]
I’m in a pub, bank card waving in one hand, clutch bag in the other, waiting for my next vodka and blackcurrant at a buzzing bar. “Sorry there” he says. He being a handsome stranger who has also just managed to squeeze into a space at this busy bar. “Pint of Heineken, please” he asks, […]
There is nothing worse than hearing something you really don’t want to hear about one of your ‘What if’ guys. Even worse again when you’re four pornstar martinis in, you’re totally caught off guard in a pub loo, and the news you hear is about how loved up he is – with a gal who […]
