For Fenella

When I think about my younger self I can distinctly remember a nervous little girl who didn’t say much. Fast forward to now, years later, and sure some of the nerves are still there, but they are running alongside one hell of a powerful voice. The comparisons between these two girls are plenty – Big eyebrows, a love of writing, a heart full of passion and the huge likelihood to trip over and fall into pools of water. I may not have children to nurture just yet, but I can still nurture that little girl.

I will always need to care for myself. This little girl will be within me forever, my legs may have gotten (a tiny bit) longer but I still live for ginger nut biscuits, my sister’s wardrobe and cuddles from my mum when I’m sad. I’m learning to drive at the moment and the other day while in the car, my mum said “Just think, as your mother this might be the last thing I ever teach you…” to which I replied in complete horror “Please don’t say that mum, I still have a few questions left!” I mean, don’t even get me started on childbirth! Although, in many ways, I think she was actually right.

We live our whole lives being influenced by incredible people, but sometimes we have to open our eyes to the old photos, ignore the horrendous outfits and remember who that little girl once was and who she was always destined to be. Let’s be honest here, she was ICONIC. At some point in my life I was dancing in front of the TV to the theme song of the Tweenies while my Baby Annabell doll was napping. Did I care who was watching? Absolutely not, I felt I was putting on a great show through the sitting room window and had my priorities completely in order. No but honestly, I was just a girl who knew she loved Fizz, Bella, and while we’re on the topic, Britney Spears. They were my superheroes.

I don’t know if any of this post makes sense but what I’m trying to say is that no one is you. Dance your little heart out in all walks of life, make yourself known and make sure it is for all the right reasons. Your passions are a trail left by the Universe for you to follow. Don’t forget who you are, bring that little girl along with you on all your adventures, let her live her wildest dreams while she continues to keep you grounded. She will always provide your roots but the years have given her wings. Open them and set her free.





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