Tuesday, 16 August 2016

And Eventually You Will Be Where You're Supposed To Be!

When I did my Leaving Cert a few years back I honestly had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I had put down courses I was really unsure about just for the sake of it and because I felt that people expected me to know where I wanted to go in life. I wasn't sure if I even wanted to go to college, I never had that deep desire to get going and get out of my house as quickly as possible because I was such a homebird (still am) and was just all over the place in general. When I got my results I remember feeling a bit disappointed because I didn't think I would get offered any of my courses and watching everyone around me discussing where they would be going to college and who they would be living with got me in a bit of a heap because I thought I should just know where I was going and where I would be a year or two from now. To my surprise, I did end up getting offered one of my courses but at that stage I still wasn't even sure if college was for me. I felt thrilled anyway though, I really was proud of myself after putting myself down on results day. I was never a really academic person and I know I could have studied a lot more than I actually did but I knew what I loved and I knew what my passions were even if I couldn't find them on many of the pages of my school books.

Despite my doubts about college, I went on the first day to test the water. As buzzing and exciting as the atmosphere was there was just something in my gut telling me it wasn't for me. Honestly, I cried my eyes out to my dad one day when he said 'Fe, talk to me, I know something's up, you don't really want to go, do you?' And of course, my dad knowing me better than anyone, he was right. I had one of my usual over the top emotional breakdowns and sat down with my parents to decide what I wanted to do.

I then deferred the place to give myself time to think it through but when the time came around again I decided I did not want to go to college, it just wasn't for me. I guess getting the course was the universe trying to give me the option so I would not always wonder 'What if I had got that college course?' No matter how many ups and downs I've had along the way, I can't express how many exciting opportunities I've had on the journey since and I've never looked back. I genuinely believe you need to listen to your gut and it will guide you. I'm now hoping to do a make-up course in the next few months, something I would never have thought about doing two years ago. It's funny how things can change over time!

No matter if you're delighted of disappointed with your results tomorrow, just remember that everything happens for a reason even if you can't see what the reason is yet. Sure I still get down days where I just cry, eat too much junk food and think 'Oh my god what am I doing with my life?' but everybody has those days and I firmly believe you will eventually get where you're meant to be, with the people you're supposed to be there with :) Don't get too sucked into the hype, it's not the end of the world and no matter what results other people get it doesn't affect you so don't waste time comparing :) 

Best of luck everyone, naggins out and tears away!

Belief is the light that shines upon our dreams!

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