Despite my doubts about college, I went on the first day to test the water. As buzzing and exciting as the atmosphere was there was just something in my gut telling me it wasn't for me. Honestly, I cried my eyes out to my dad one day when he said 'Fe, talk to me, I know something's up, you don't really want to go, do you?' And of course, my dad knowing me better than anyone, he was right. I had one of my usual over the top emotional breakdowns and sat down with my parents to decide what I wanted to do.
I then deferred the place to give myself time to think it through but when the time came around again I decided I did not want to go to college, it just wasn't for me. I guess getting the course was the universe trying to give me the option so I would not always wonder 'What if I had got that college course?' No matter how many ups and downs I've had along the way, I can't express how many exciting opportunities I've had on the journey since and I've never looked back. I genuinely believe you need to listen to your gut and it will guide you. I'm now hoping to do a make-up course in the next few months, something I would never have thought about doing two years ago. It's funny how things can change over time!
No matter if you're delighted of disappointed with your results tomorrow, just remember that everything happens for a reason even if you can't see what the reason is yet. Sure I still get down days where I just cry, eat too much junk food and think 'Oh my god what am I doing with my life?' but everybody has those days and I firmly believe you will eventually get where you're meant to be, with the people you're supposed to be there with :) Don't get too sucked into the hype, it's not the end of the world and no matter what results other people get it doesn't affect you so don't waste time comparing :)
Best of luck everyone, naggins out and tears away!